Monday, March 26, 2012


I dont know for what reason but all of a sudden yesterday at night when everyone else was sleeping I was awake still it was like 10pm at night and out of nowhere I started to remember about my high school crush his name was Francisco I know it was a long time ago and I have moved on and I kind of forgot about him I have not thought about him in a long time really because of all the other things that I have been doing. But either way i have not forgotten about him at all I still remember when he was in my spanish class for two years hahaha:) those two years were fun for me though we never got to talk for reals he would just ignore me but eventhoguh I still knew he really liked me and I liked him alot  also I could even tell everytime when I was around him how nervous he would get and of course everybody else in spanish class could tell also what was going on. I also remembered how I used to have a picture of him that I saw from the school newspaper its old but its still  pasted in my special box he used to be in jrotc at school and thats the only picture i have of him but at least its something. Then all of a sudden I started to cry tears came out from my eyes and I was laying down in my bed wetting my pillow and thinking of alot of stuff in my head but i felt good somehow because every tear that I used to cry for him every night just made me a stronger person and helped me to move on. The most important thing is that I learned how to let him go and if he was meant to be for reals then it will happen in the future but if not then thats ok because thats how life is and not everything in life can turn out as we wanted to but I just hope that he is ok whetever he may be and I am glad it happened because that just made me open up to love and know that someday I will find that special someone  i know he is out there I just have to keep on looking because if its not him then somebody else will be.